I know i can write now...
But what for? Amidst all the mess in my life the past year, will i still go on? I had bitter experiences dealing with special people. I was happy then . Like Moonfang, I had a circlet of moonbeams hanging around me making me smile and inspiring my thoughts. I was well motivated everyday that time -fixing myself and growing mightily. But after the cataclysm, I was worn and broken. Very fragile and pessimistic. I thought I was psychotically treated by people. I was blue all the time.
After that year(that's a year before this year), its all again happening. It would be good for me if things were all right but its not. What I fear the most now is uselessly spending my most treasure in life like what i did that year -TIME. I know I am not literally rich(money and properties) but I am far way beyond richer with smiles and people. With special ones? -I guess it was just a blessing that I encountered bitterness the first time so that wisdom would taught me well to handle the same instance again. Time for me to move on!
Its really hard to express my life chapters in words but I am trying. That's why I like writing much as I do it as an outburst of my thoughts and emotions.
You see... I can write!...
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This article was first published in jede202.blogs.friendster.com on June 09, 2007
